For the past 18+ of my life, I've experienced the pain of losing 2 of my loved ones.
I quarreled with my Dad as much as I buy new shoes(LOL), I fell in (puppy)love and got into short term relationships thrice. I also gained a lot of things which I can never learn from the textbooks about family, friendships and relationships through the people around me.
I'm normally the one whom people will come to ask for advices and being the listener of theirs. But when it comes to me, I cannot help myself.
Throughout these almost twenty years, I learn from them and vice versa. But it seems like people will never learn and cherish what they have until they experience it themselves. Or worst still, they will still make the same mistakes again and again. And to be frank, I'm like this.(SIGH)
But one thing I'm sure of is that despite all those difficulties I've faced, god will always bring me hopes! God send angels in my life to save me, to hear my sorrows and complains, to go through thick and thin with me, to laugh and to cry with me.
People(I) always think that god is unfair and your life is fucking miserable. We hardly blame ourselves and think that 'Oh! I'm the most pathetic person in this world.'
But sadly and fortunately, you're not! Think about people who don't even have families, people without love, people without friends, people without food/water, people without a shelter, people without everything that you have. Are you really that pathetic? That miserable that you wanna die?
Everyone have their own problems and worries. Some chose to hide it all and be happy, some chose to vent it all out as if everyone owes them a living.
I used to be extremely rebellious that I've made my parents shed countless tears and to worry about my safety. I yelled at them and shouted the nastier things that you can never think of. Fucked-up attitude to my juniors and friends around me.
Even till now, I still get furious easily, over the littlest things. I'm not perfect, I'm hard to go along with, I've billions of flaws! But, Im definitely a lot more better than before ^^"
In life, we learn from our mistakes and grow up to a more mature person. We slowly take up skills and plan for a better future.
I don't know what will I be in 10 years' time, you never know if I will become a billionaire or maybe a beggar.(LOL)
But, do bear this in mind:
No matter what happens, even if the sky is falling down, you're Definitely NOT alone! (:
It may be tough at that moment but do not give up. As long as you're optimistic, you will be able to think wisely and there will always be a way.
Sometimes mistakes made cannot be amended, you can only move on and promise yourself not to make the same mistake again. Its hard but we gotta try.
I've learned my lessons and I'm trying my best to become a better person. What about you?
Good luck and god bless you!
PS: I apologize if I've offended anyone but this is just a post written by me about how I'm feeling (:
